Hey! Let's face the fact and stalk the smexy beast yet dorks, Kim jaejoong-sshi from TVXQ! His smile and naughty tougue is killing me, his evey move is loved, his voice toke my breath away when he sing. His wife gonna be soooo lucky to have a good-cook husband too! His airport wear make poeple think "Is he on cat walk, model show or something?" Very fashionable! MAMA like it. xD it's time to say byebye to my lovely pumpkins cause it's time to say hello JaeJae! :P
Weather: Warm Mood: So-So Song In The HEad: Wake Up By Hilary Duff
Just now, met up Jedi... Watch The Island kat SunPLaza... Freakily kewt sak the movie... Ewan McGregor is kinda kewt in the movie... Hee... Especially when the cloned Lincoln wanna follow the real Lincoln how to speak.. Hee...
To me its worth me and Jedi's $ watching it... Its freaky too... Seeing what the future myte be... Weird..
Then, after the movie ended, we went to Civic Centre and hung out there for a while Before I left Jedi alone to go home... Sorie baby...
To Jedi, "I had fun just now.. Thanx for wanting to meet me... I was kinda bored at home anyway.. And I'm sorry with whats happening... I hope u'll be fyne.. Love ya baby..."
~peace out~
Firyana Trousdale
11:29 PM smexy Sunday, July 31, 2005
► gone to the airport...
Weather: cool and windy Mood: darn moody... NOT!! haha! Song In the head: I Decide by LL
Now watchin tv while typing this Me so tyred.. Kept sleeping the whole tyme... Went to the airport and go blajar.. [yeah ryte, me blajar...] Wif Wan Bapok,Syaznie and Alien... Then Abg Jughead dtg...
Mostly just hang at McD... Got home sleepy sia... I think not enuf sleep... Cos must wakey in the morning ma.. Haiz!!
I think thats all... I love u my baby... :)
~peace out~
Firyana Trousdale
8:06 PM smexy Saturday, July 30, 2005
► Tyred...
Weather: Warm Mood: Over the moon Song In The Head: "selfish" by NSYNC
I da type long2 tadi... BUt this stupid thing tak post... I give up...
Fantastic 4 was the bomb... Jessica Alba is so pretty... Kewl effects and totally awesome...
After that, hung out wif Jedi.. Sang songs and talk things thru... If it rains tonyte, its me and Jedi's bad... Sorie.. Hee
To Jedi, "Thanx for understanding and i really appreciate it... Dont worie me not hurt... Understanding is one of the key ingredients in a relationship... I love ya babe... Hee..."
~peace out~
Firyana Trousdale
11:05 PM smexy Thursday, July 28, 2005
► At H0ME n0w...
Weather: Warm and a bit kool at tymes.. [Sorie can't make up my mind] Mood: Not as hyper as yesterday... Unlyke Z...!! Hee! Song IN The HEad: More Than That by BSB
Now at home... Staring at this laptop,typing up stuff that i dont expect ppl to read...Hee.. I'm also staring at a pic of Dream Street while typing this up... I guess to get inspiration... Hee!
I'm so bored and class will be starting at 3... Really dont feel lyke going to sch at all... Arghh!!
"Dream Street, Dream Street... Help me please... Gimme inpirations Hear my pleas..."
wow... Didnt see that coming... HAHAH!! Its lyke a freaking spell.. Hee...
-blowing nose- Sorie... Freaking sick ah... I'm practically typing rubbish on my blog... But mainly to release my stress.. Hee... So pls dont mind me ppl...
Now listening to Ryan Cabrera "On The Way Down" Down to where?
Oh yeah... tmr miting Yen... My most bestest crazy kuzzin... I think she's following me and Jedi to go to Jedi's ex-sch... After sch ah gurl... Hee...
I"M SO STRESSED!! I'm talking crap in dis blog... I better go... Before I go crazy more...
Babai!
~peace out~
Firyana Trousdale
10:15 AM smexy Wednesday, July 27, 2005
► Where You Are by Jessica Simpson & Nick Lachey
There are times I swear I know you're here When I forget about my fears Feeling you my dear Watchin over me And my hope seeks What the future will bring When you wrap me in your wings And take me
CH0RUS ======== Where you are Where you and I will breathe together Once again We'll be dancing in the moonlight Just like we used to do And you'll be smilin back at me Only then will I be free When I can be Where you are
And I can see your face Your kiss I still can taste Not a memory erased Oh, I see your star Shining down on me And I'd do anything If I could just Be right there
Repeat CH0RUS
Then I will be free So take me where you are Now baby there were times when selfishly I'm wishing that you are here with me So I can wipe the tears away from your eyes And make you see That every night while you are dreamin I'm here to guard you from a far And anytime I feel alone I close my eyes and dream of Where you are Where you and I can breathe together (and we will breathe together baby) Once again (oh, we'll be dancing in the moonlight) We'll be dancin in the moonlight Just like we used to do And you'll be smilin back at me (only then will I be free) Then I will be free Baby I still believe Oh I've got to believe I will touch you that sweet day That you take me there Where you are I still believe Oh I've got to believe I will touch you that sweet day That you take me there Where you are Oh where you are I've got to believe I'll always be waiting here That sweet day yeah Only wanna be where you are I still believe
7:58 PM smexy Monday, July 25, 2005
► Hey LYFE...
Hey lyfe.... Look me in the eye Why do you do this to me? Taking away my only solace... My heart aches... For my only... Why do I always let it slip through my hands? Then will think back of yesteryears... Forget about it, I won't get it back...
Hey lyfe, Why does it make me sick to the stomach? Why does it make me feel awful inside? Why does my heart bleeds for something that I'm not sure about...? Why is it that I can't find peace anymore? Am I lost? Lost in my whole world...?
Hey lyfe, Save me from falling... Save me from losing out... Save me from everything.. That's threatening to me... I am seeking for a place in my sad state... Will everyone care??
Hey lyfe, Its over for me... Its damn hard to be alive no more... Maybe I should just let go of this lyfe... And end it altogether...
Well,maybe I should... Maybe I really should...
~peace out~
Firyana Trousdale
5:59 PM smexy Sunday, July 24, 2005
► i saw you...
► ANGELS....
What's in the world that people are rushing for? Money and gold to make them rich These people didn't see the war and the famine That's been going on around the world At those 3rd world countries
Why is it that they fail to see? The war that are tearing away the countries apart The disasters that are happening to us all No, they wouldn't They refused to Cos to them it's not their problem It's not their fault that these things happen It's not their lives that's been touched Why do they have to act this way? Acting lyke arrogant idiots and failed to do what matters Fail to act in a human manner Fail to help those in need
I wish I could tell them what’s happening But they won’t hear me They won’t care They won’t take me seriously They would say “it’s nothing to do with me…” Arrogant idiots
What now? Do they wanna wait till it happens to them? Do they want it to happen to their country? To their family and relatives? To their economy?
It’s now to help It’s now to be there for people Who needed help Who needed love And the tender touch Your tender touch
Why resist? Give everything you have To help Give everything you can do To ease their pain Their loss
Thank you all and many For your tyme and dedication You guys are the best that God put down in earth
The angels of this world… Angels to save the falling grace of the people
Angels You’re always in the heart of many
3:27pm Thursday 26/05/05
~Firhana Trousdale~
12:05 AM smexy Saturday, July 23, 2005
► We Believe - G00d Charlotte
Verse 1 =======
There's a woman crying out tonight Her world has changed She asks God why Her only son has died And now her daughter cries She can't sleep at night
Downtown Another day for all the suits and ties Another war to fight There's no regard for life How do they sleep at night How can we make things right? Just wanna make this right
Chorus: ========
We believe We believe We believe We believe We believe We believe In this love
Verse 2: ======== We are all the same Human in all our ways and all our pain (So let it be) There's a love that could fall down like rain (Let us see) Let forgiveness wash away the pain (What we need) And no one really knows what they are searching for (We believe) This world is crying for so much more
Repeat CHORUS twice
Bridge: ======
So this world Is too much For you to take Just lay it down and follow me I'll be everything you need In every way
Repeat CHORUS till fade
11:46 PM smexy Friday, July 22, 2005
► Thanx for miting me...
Weather: Hot today... Mood: Under the weather... Song In The Head: None at the moment...
Just lepas mandi... Best... Just now went and meet up wif Jedi... OMG!!! So short the hair!! But once u make it spiky, comfem hansem eh..! Hee! Love ya!
Tadi emotions run high wen toking wif Jedi... A lot of things to say and mistakes were admitted.. I hope u forgive me Jedi...
A bit sleepy now becos of the crying and stuff... Sorie there...
Dewi, ko akan berlepas for Umrah besok... Jager diri baik2... Jgn nakal2 di saner... Hee...
Eh, sleepy ah me... I go 1st ah.. Leaving blogging area now.. Babai!!
~peace out~
Firyana Trousdale
10:47 PM smexy Wednesday, July 20, 2005
► Bloggin TYME!!
► Sleepy man...
Weather: Cold.. and Raining Mood: Moody a bit... mcm Jedi plak... [Sorry babe!] Song In The Head: "What I Like About You" by Lillix
Its so early in the morning... And Z just ask me why do i lyke to blog so early in the morning... I was lyke "That's when the creative juices flow...!" Hee! I'm soo sleepy seh now... Mcm nk sleep jer...
But later must print my project... Haiz... :P
Yesterday something happened... Me and Jedi was shocked when we heard abt it... Jedi was damned pissed... But i told her to calm down...
To Jedi,
"Relax k... We have to bersabar... Let it be... Yeah, i noe it's hard to keep a low profile... But i think maybe most people still doesn't noe... Secret is still safe, I guess... just calm down k babe... heads up!! Love ya babe!! Hee!"
To Barney and Oleb, "I think I was pissed at 1st... But not as pissed as Jedi... But I still wanna be frenz wif u and ur Oleb... I dont wanna make a big prob out of it... Yesterday i called just to set evrything straight.. But u become defensive and heard the wrong things.. I'm sorry for being offensive to u... I'm sorry..."
I guess that's all... Comments pls... NIce ones ah... Heee...
8:22 AM smexy Tuesday, July 19, 2005
► Early In The Morning...
Weather: Warm Mood: Not That hyper .... Thank you.... Song In The HEad: Saturday Night by aaron Carter
Now its officially 10am.... I have to get ready to go to school... But I have no mood... Whats wif the projects and all... I;m so messed up... Im so stressed up too... My FLASH folio haven;t done yet... ARGHH!!!
Me sleepy now... And I miss my Alien.. And not forgettting u Jedi... Hee... Thanx for saying that my poems/lyrics are great... You made my day totally... Hee...!
Thanx for hanging out wif me yesterday... I'm glad i brot my laptop wif me... We get to really bond... Hee! For the nice talks... And now I'm koling u 0SCAR THE GROUCH instead of JEdi ha...!! HAHA!
I'm so bored and frustrated wif where and what i have to do.. But I have to think positive always... POSITIVE FIRDIANA!!!
OKay i think that's all... I have no more to say... PPL do comment me!!! I wanna hear views...
~peace out~
Firyana TRousdale
9:58 AM smexy Monday, July 18, 2005
► Hey peeps...
Weather: cool... Mood: Happy...? Hee Song In The Head: Let Me Fall by Bethany Joy Lenz
Hey guys... Was on the phone a while back wif Novie.. Together wif d gurl u wanna,huh? Congrats k? Hee... Just dont argue so much k?
Just now went and hung out wif Jedi... Start ah diernyer kewt! Hee...
Now online... and chatting wif Barney... Im lyke so sleepy here but have to watch my weekly dose of One Tree Hill on 8TV... Hee... Love James Lafferty.. Pity Channel 5 doesn't show Summerland... Then I get to drool at the ex-Ds member, JESSE McCARTNEY... Hee... Hope they would and pls do show at 10 oclock not 12am or something... Hee... Maybe I shld start a petition... Hee...
OKay.... Gotta concentrate on my OTH now...
Babai!
~peace out~
Firyana Trousdale
11:01 PM smexy Saturday, July 16, 2005
► A letter to a friend...
I rather keep this personal but Jedi told me if i want my friend to read this, i betta post in the my blog.. Maybe one way or another, she will read this post... So here goes... This is a letter that i wrote for a friend last year but nvr did get to give it to her... Due to some circumstances, we dont meet up nor talk nor text to each other no more...
Dated: 03/12/04 Tyme: 12:47am
Its been a long tyme tak bebual... Kalau rindu you, me kluarkan letter2 lamer yg u pernah kasi... I bacer... Aderlah rindu hilang sikit... Heheh... Me pernah bilang you kan yang I pernah wrote a song for you kan? Actually I da lamer wrote that song... Its just that I tak pernah bilang you that I wrote this earlier than you thought... I wrote this song abt a few days after your dad passed away... I hope you lyke it...
Title: Being There
I'm so sorry to hear You lost somebody you love Hes gone forever He'll be watching from above
You've got to believe he's watching over you You've got to believe he's not lost He's always in your heart, you know you got Believe he's there, always you must
I know I did not feel what you're feeling But I know i will feel it sooner or later I don't know how you are coping Just call me if you need me, my sister...
~~The End~~
That's it... Hope you lyke it...
Firyana Trousdale
10:38 AM smexy Friday, July 15, 2005
► At Home now sick...
► GooD Charlotte was The BoMB!!
Weather: Warm... Mood: CraZY!! Song In The Head: "We Believe" By Good Charlotte... hee!
Hey one and all... Hee... Just woke up from slp... and head strait to the laptop... What a great day yesterday nyte! As most of y'all noe, Jedi and I went to the GC concert And its rocking in the Indoor Stadium!! Benji kept saying stupid things and it kewt! HAHA!!
I have only lyke 3 pics abt the concert cos actually we're not suppose to bring in Digicams But i got through.. Hee... But eventhough lyke that, i only manage to get 3 pics... Scared ah... Hee....
Untuk tatapan semuer... my measly 3 pics of the concert...
I hope that's okay... Hee
Jedi is so kewt... Dier jump so lyke krazy... Dier takot I got embarrassed... But honey, i'm so not... I'm happy to be there wif ya!! Lap ya!! Haha!!
Guess overall its kinda kewt... Esp when Benji said he wanna emigrate here... Haha!! Love ya guys!
Come back here soon GC!! We'll be waiting!!
That's all peeps!
~peace out~
Firyana Trousdale
3:30 PM smexy Wednesday, July 13, 2005
► I'm so sleepy...
Weather: Rain + Shine Mood: a bit tyred... cos me sleepy ah... but i have to be extremely kooky! Song In The Head: "Lucky" by Britney Spears...[Tee-hee!]
Now in NWF class... me a bit sleepy... But i shouldn't be.... cos of the concert later today.. Hee!! Skarang class kecoh.. I think they are restless... Nk alik... i need to change and wait up for Jedi An at the Indoor Stadium... The thing is I don't know how!! Haiz..!
Aku pening!! Aku pening!! Aku pening!!
I go now... Lap ya!!
~PeaceOut~~
Firyana Trousdale
3:39 PM smexy Tuesday, July 12, 2005
► CraZY!!!
Weather: Warm and sunny Mood: Impatient [can't wait for the concert tmr] Song In The Head: "I Can Love You Lyke That" By All 4 One
Hey y'all!
Now at school... Since it's been a while i didn't update my blog... I think it's tyme... Hee...
I just noe how to dismantle a computer... I guess i can be a technician already... haha!
Tomorrow is the GC concert... Can't wait... I asked my bro whether i can borrow his Digicam... And he said YES!! I never thought he wld let me! Haha!
Later today, Jedi and I are gonna buy new t-shirts... Maybe its just for the concert... haha! Weird huh? Maybe its to remind us abt the concert... This is Jedi's 1st concert so i'm happy that i gt to bring Jedi An along... Anniversary gift kape? haha!!
So i guess that's all... me still worried over Alien.. She fell on Friday... and scraped both her knees...
I feel guilty cos i promise Abg that I'll take care of her... But i didn't do too well.. Maybe later today i'm gonna take her home... I'll See ya later alien...
OKay that's all peeps... Babai!
~Peace Out~~
Firyana Trousdale
12:58 PM smexy Monday, July 11, 2005
► What's up with lyfe?
What's up with my lyfe today?
Why do I feel this way?
Why do you not care with me?
Why do you just walk pass me?
Can't you see me?
I'm just here...
I'm just standing alone here...
Who am I to you?
Who am I in your lyfe?
Am I invisible to you?
This is unfair to me...
Why me?
...I'm lonely now...
...I'm a nobody...
...I'm restless...
...I'm a ghost to evryone...
...I'm just a grain of sand...
...I'm a useless "thing"...
...I'm not needed no more...
...I'm a waste...
...I'm a small person...
...I have low-self esteem...
...I'm lower than low...
But guess what? I'm changing...
I don't need anyone...
I just need me...
I'm a person to evryone...
I'm a star in the sky...
I'm a useful "thing"...
I'm always needed...
I'm a recycled thing...
I'm a tall person...
I'm confident...
And I'm happy...
I'm ME...
~~Peace Out~~
Firyana Trousdale
1:31 PM smexy Wednesday, July 06, 2005
► ELATED!
weather: warm mood: Elated! Song In the Head: we believe - good charlotte
I'm so happy... I won two tix to watch GC in concert! I got a call arnd noon from a lady and she said i won! I hugged juli and Salwa[wawa] so tyte! Hee Elated giler
Told Jedi... Lagik dier happy... Tk pernah menang seh me... Hee! So Jedi's Coming wif me to the concert! Jedi's happy!
